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Lyrics that touched my heart ... hopefully yours too

Rescue me from the mire, whisper words of desire
Rescue me - darling rescue me
With your arms open wide, want you here by my side
Come to me - darling rescue me

When this world's closing in
There's no need to pretend
Set me free - darling rescue me

I don't wanna let you go
So I'm standing in your way
I never needed anyone
Like I'm needin' you today

Do I have to say the words?
Do I have to tell the truth?
Do I have to shout it out?
Do I have to say a prayer?
Must I prove to you how good we are together?
Do I have to say the words?

Rescue me from despair, tell me you'll be there
Help me please - darlin' rescue me
Every dream that we share, every cross that we bear
Can't you see? - darlin' rescue me, yeah

Day 8

Can't believe it... a full week has past since u made the decision ....

means ... about 7 weeks to go

I know i know .. you like red roses ... will remember that by hard henceforth already ...

like to close my eyes and imagine u in different clothes ...

No.. it's not perverted.

Day 7

seven more days before u are back ..
i cant write day in day out about how much i miss u ... but i do

thanks for getting all the stuff .. i realli appreciate it ... =)

decided to tell u something that makes me vulnerable ... but .. i decided to say nonetheless

missing u makes me realise something ... makes me how i have not missed anyone before. it's true. i dun think i ever wanted someone to be my side as much as i do right now. in previous relationship .. i jus adapt and move on. i never realised i was cold .. until i am this into something ... u are exactly what i want.

i do wanna go back with u in october.. see how it goes...

fyi, the countdown clock reads 55 days, 1,320 hours, 79,200mins and 4,752,000 seconds.

Day 6

Just back from Paris ...

What the trip for me was that I really have alot of time to clear my thoughts - which I did. I thought about alot of things .. my future ... my work ... then the rest are just abt u u u u u and us.

I really missed our time in Budapest. Perhaps at the time we thought that the end was near .. so we made it a very enjoyable 4 days. For what it was worth, that was my best holiday ever. =)

I miss you so much.

day 5

Harlow ... i am really beginning to smile all over again ... thank u ...

Heading off to Paris in a bit ... =)

day 4

Benson. Thanks for telling benson.

For the first time in a long while i feel that we are moving in the right direction. I finally feel that we are on right track. Thanks. Like I said before... I will try everything to make u the happiest ger ard... though u may have bipoplar disorder and swing between moods... but i will be there ard u, wherever u go ... or run to.

i think i can start to smile again

Day 3

Things seems to have returned to normal again to me .... but inside i still feel tinges of fear and nervousness ....

it's not you, it's me ... i need u too too much ... too much for our own good ....
but like i can help it... i cannot ..

realli miss you ... how can i get past the next 2 weeks or for that matter nex 60days?

hey ... today is our -2 month anniversary ... haha .... =

miss u so much

Day 2

The day after tomorrow...
Still feeling scared, fearful and somehow helpless again ...but got you mail ... your promise is everything i need...
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From: XXX XXX@gmail.com
To: XXX XXX@yahoo.com
Sent: Tuesday, 20 February, 2007 6:47:10 AM
Subject: Re:
hi..

i'm sorry i caused you so much pain.. and i really really wished it didn't come down to this. and the more i try to pull away and the more u try to hold on.. the more worried i am about us getting together and how this whole episode will affect us.

In a way, its completely weird how this is all turning out because.. getting together.. should have been a happy thing. but it wasn't right from the start.. and.. when everything seemed ok, i completely ruined it. if getting together is so hard.. what does that say about the future of the relationship?

but i promise i will work things out and no more panic attacks from 22 onwards...

and.. i hope i really mean that much to u.. because to me, i'm not worth that much effort.
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format

I wun deal too much with the template of the blog, afterall no one should find this out before the date itself. No names will be mentioned, no personal pictures will be posted.

From today till then, I will try to blog one entry a day, topping 60 entries by 22 April 2007, telling what I went thru.

On 23:59 on 21 April 2007, I will post the blog address across, and you shall read everything from Day 0, which was yesterday, 19 Feb 2007.

This is how much I care and want us to work.

First Post

Hi, by the time u read this, we are already together.

This is the first post and i write it with great emotional struggle and pain.

Given the choice to do to everything again, i would no doubt do it so that it will be right for u and me. Because that is the only thing I want.

I love you. I really do. I pray everything that 22 April 2007 will happen and I pray that one day I will be able to make you the happiest ger on Earth.